Looking through these pictures reminded me of being home schooled,only 'cos it was when i finished...that whole period i lived in my solitude and learned to love myself.
when i finally got Sidley i had a little companion,as everyone was entering their first year at college i was at home staying up all night watching movies with Sid on my shoulder,drinking a cup of coffee,enjoying the winter rain,and isolation.
i'm the kind that thinks too much,that analyzes every person,and tries to figure her own mistakes...BUT NEVER REGRETS.
there were days when i couldn't bare being in someone's presence all i wanted was to stay in my shell.
i could only relate to Finnish music,crying as i listened to the piano as i have always done.
i pushed people away,i didn't want them to get attached to me or vice versa and i didn't need anyone to understand me 'cos i knew who i was and what i wanted to become.
it's been nearly a year and i still feel the same.
the only thing is that lately i have been talking to more people than i should allow myself.
it's weird 'cos normally i don't talk up a storm at school,but out of nowhere i do,and
i'm afraid that if i keep it up i'll just end up getting attached to everyone...
and i don't want that.
BUT my lonesome life is yearning,she wants me back and i'm going to her willingly 'cos i do miss her,she's the one that i've always been since birth.
sorry if this sounds very depressing or boring,but it's 3 in the morning,i'm listening to Finnish music,and i'm the only one up in this house...which means i'm writing on here about how i feel.
hei hei
xoxo
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